198/365 2011 Reflections

O, what a year…I’m grateful it’s almost over. This is the first year in a while I’ve caused more pain than given grace and goodness. Not a good feeling. People say ‘Have no regrets’ but I regret not sacrificing more for love. It’s a painful regret but I don’t grieve over it because where there is regret, there is grace. O, this grace – it’s absolutely unfair. If grace was fair, I should wallow in my own self-pity and go to hell for my hard, unloving heart. But God gives grace so abundant that He redeems our mistakes and gives beauty for ashes. Grace is utterly astonishing, it gives what I don’t deserve – absolute forgiveness and a fresh start.

I pray God will enlarge the capacity of my heart for more love in 2012. And He will – He’s faithful. :j